Ashamed

 Morning weight: 139.0

2 tortas de aciete- 300
small bag of haribo gummy bears- 500
extra large sugar cookie- 300
chunk of french bread- 170
Hungry Howie's Large Cheese Bread- 1,000,000
movie-size pack of Mike and Ike's

30 minutes stationary bike, 12-13 mph



FAIL.

I had sex with Sam for the first time since I found out he cheated on me (a little bit over a month ago) last night. I feel ashamed of myself. All I could imagine the whole time was him having sex with that girl. He lasted a while too, much more than he was able to in the past after not having sex for a while. Which leads me to believe that he has been having sex with someone else. Or maybe I'm just imagining things. So after we had sex and he fell asleep, I went and binge-ate. And then I binge-ate for the rest of the day.

My sister had her baby yesterday. I'm not sure if I mentioned it in any of these posts I haven't deleted, but she is still in high school and just turned 16 in July. I saw a picture of the baby that my mom posted to Facebook and it's pretty cute. MUCH cuter than my sister when she was just born. I'm surprised, because the baby's dad has the worst genes ever. Ugly and skinny as hell. No muscle tone at all. Has ridiculous acid reflux and throws up in his mouth constantly at only 18. Has ADD. He can't even wake up with an alarm, he needs someone to physically shake him to wake him up. How the hell is he going to wake up to his baby crying? And my sister has received money from relatives to help with the baby, and she has given some of it to him for various things. So he's stealing from his own baby! Yeah, I pretty much hate him.

But I'm going to be the coolest aunt ever.