So Stressed

Why do I always wait until the last minute to do things? It always screws me in the end. I'm taking 2 totally online classes, and this weekend there are tests in both. My Drugs and Human Behavior class exam opens today and closes tomorrow night, and my Developmental Psychology exam opens tomorrow and closes Sunday night. I've only studied for half of the Drugs and Human Behavior one, and half for the Developmental Psychology one (but that was long ago, and I forgot mostly everything).  I can't spend this whole weekend studying though: I have to work 1-9 pm today and tomorrow. I'm guessing the same on Sunday, but I haven't seen the schedule yet. To top it off, while I was hired as a cashier in the small local (and overpriced) grocery store I work at, they're putting me to work in the deli, which technically is the cafe area. I was in the deli for the first time last Sunday and I felt so clueless on what to do. Nobody was really giving me any instruction. So all I did was scoop out vegetable and meat salads for people and work behind the bakery case, handing out cookies and brownies in labeled bags for whoever asked for one. But is that all they want me to do? Other people in the bakery work the register and make sandwiches. So when all the customers want to order sandwiches/grill items, and nobody is asking for baked goods or salad plate, I'm standing around doing nothing. I'm pretty sure they don't want me to cook on the grill though.... that wouldn't go so good haha. There is a list of things the deli manager wants to get done listed behind the entree case, but I was only told/taught to retrieve about-to-be-expired prepackaged entrees and panning bacon, which is just laying bacon on a sheet to be baked. So I'm stressed as fuck about working in the deli today. Plus my boyfriend who I live with went home to his parents until Sunday night, and I feel a bit lonely. Plus my belly is still full from my Big Mac/fries/candy bar/Starburst/Skittles binge from yesterday. AND. I can't get a good layout on Blogger.

F.M.L.

P.S. I deleted all my old posts because they were depressing me. If anyone wants to know what was in them, it goes like this: lose some weight, gain some weight, lose some weight gain lots of weight, dog gets put down, school starts, boyfriend moves in, I learn boyfriend cheated on me for the two weeks before he moved in